God I apologize to you. I apologize for not totally understanding, therefore turning away from you. I now understand my duty to be still and know that I AM You. (Ezekiel 36:27 (NIV) And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees….) God I apologize for being wise on my own accord. I apologize God for accepting the labels and judgments of this world; when you specifically said turn away from it all. (Romans 12:2 (NIV) Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.)
When I got lost, I started creating my own will. A will separate from yours however, I would sometimes ask, how are You in control? I was so lost and fueled with darkness, I wasn’t sure I’d find my way back to your true essence of lightness. Thank you God, that now I am true, I promise to obey by staying present with You. Allowing you to move in me, through my presence of you within me. After all this is what I know to do, you said Be Still and Know that its YOU! (Psalm 46:10 (NIV) He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”) I will now turn away from my mind, and follow you through my heart, after all this is Your true design. (Proverbs 4:23 (NIV) Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.)
You’ve designed a world full of love, yet I was on a journey that led away from that love. I was on a road of continuous thoughts, which clearly led to more damage of the heart. Turning away from the design that leads to life. Now that I am wise in YOU, it is my life’s duty to remain attached to what’s true. This truth – I AM the truth, the way and the life in You. (John 14:6 (NIV) Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.) I AM is in me and in you! Nothing could ever give me more joy and now it is my duty to share your true design with the world. Careful to remain humble and true to you, realizing, that I am nothing without you.
You are the very essence of life, which is why it’s so vital to stay connected to You. Your design and duty of us all; to restore a world of peace and joy and now it’s my true desire to help bring that truth to be. God I know longer blame You, or anyone else who has come from you. I understand how like me, they were lost too. God you are amazing, I know it personally to be true. I do understand the importance of my connection to you.
The only way to remain connected to you is to be aware, by allowing my mind to stay clear, which will enable the flow from You to me, to always be clear. I cannot continue to cloud my mind, which fills my heart with anything other, then practices that stem from my heart. Practices of acceptance, peace and love. This is our true connection to the One above, the One who transcends fear and practices of hate that has at one time swallowed us all. My practice of awareness allows you to remain in full control.
I know understand in order for you to do this, I have to lose me. Lose the labels that both the world and myself, has placed on me. Labels were both good and bad, however they held no merit to the true life to be had. God, I apologize to you, I do. Now that I have recognized my own faults, I can fully see the true beauty in You and that enables me to see the beauty in all your creations too! I now live a life that’s pleasing and acceptable to You. God, I love you and thank you for loving me too!