Lie. Cheat. Master Manipulator. You wreak havoc with your constant infidelities. Your actions indirectly cause me to question my worthiness, my appearance and at times the point of my existence. I start to walk in fear. Do you love me? Will you be there? What have I done to cause this outpour of rejection bestowed upon me? When questions like this begin to plague me, we’ve run our course. We are not meant to be.
You want sex, hot meals and flawed skin on demand. A home kept clean and nice, quiet and comfortable when you get home. Rub your back; raise the kids; hold you down but never did you truly intend to make this house our home. Do you invest your fidelity, energy and time? Can I call on you to be there for me, when it’s my time to be in need? Or will you simply offer empty excuses as to why you couldn’t be?
When trials come to test integrity, honesty and loyalty, you know the characteristics you only intend to receive; you fail each time, resorting to phony apologies and fake tears. But trust, that karma can definitely be a bitch! You’ll soon see how it feels to be with someone who embodies self-interest and deceit. I know longer fall victim to your manipulation tactics, I guess it was fun for you while it lasted.
Why is it that you tell me, you can’t stand the thought of another being loved by me? Yet, you’re the one who seems to cause the most harm to me. Have you truly loved me unconditionally? So busy looking at what it takes to give instead of realizing all you had to gain in me. I doubt that you actually took the time to get to know me. I’m starting to see that you came not to give, but only to take which will only suck the life out of me. Now you know I won’t just sit back and allow such foolery to be done to me. One day, you’ll realize and see what you’ve lost when you betrayed me.
Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not mad or bitter. In loving you, I have learned how to love and value me so much better! You have taught me exactly what I don’t want for me, things I won’t accept from, or for myself because I know better. Had I not come across you, I wouldn’t know how to properly value individuals who actually do tell the truth. I now see how important it is to value myself first, above all else. In doing so I can properly discern individuals, who genuinely respect, love and care for me unselfishly. Thanks to you, I was able to witness what the absence of truth will do.