How do I not take offense when I am filled with words, actions and thoughts from the past? How do I learn to love, when the life I have lived, so full of abandonment, addictions and at times even hatred from those who claim to love and support me throughout my existence? What was the meaning of the experiences after all? To avoid love or live in pain either choice is one in the same.
How do I continue to do what’s right – I’ve been taught that life is supposed to be a fight. Now I see I have been misguided, entirely. God said his yoke was easy to carry, burdens light. So why do I feel as though I need to fight? I don’t actually. There aren’t any fights other then the wars created within me, stemming from negative thoughts I have decided to carry. If I simply let it all go would there be any controversy, it simply would not be.
How and why do I fight to remain in control, control of everything outside of me? I realize this type of thinking is pure insanity. We are to work on things we can change; allow the rest to take form and be shaped by life’s universal energy. So what can I actually control? I can control me! I decide to take control by deciding not to focus on or judge things that’s happening outside of me, but instead do my part to transform my current version of reality. But how to do that is the key and that is to begin by transforming thoughts of fear, anger and hatred to acceptance, freedom and genuine trust in my creator.
I am aware that this type of trust that I speak of can only come from my spirit, my heart. I can control my emotions based on what my spirit tells me, not what my mind thinks it knows. I can control who and what I allow to affect my energy. This is where my work is to be done.
How do I remain true to who I know myself to be, if every person around me is trying to change and shape me into what they want me to be? After all, we were born to be unique, grow into whom we were born to be, a magnificent masterpiece filled with an abundance of love given to circulate more of.
The Lesson: Learn to love in order to dim the pain. Hurt people generally hurt other people way more then they likely know. Love trumps hate but very few people practice love, but would rather argue, disagree and make that their ultimate truth. Closing off to their core, their nature and this is to love, unite and create abundance of everything desirable, everything lovable, everything true within you.
Fact is this – until we change the cycle of hatred, anger and violence we recreate what we hate, as opposed to putting out flames by deviating from the fuel that adds to the flame. In order to produce what I love, I’ll simply make the shift from the insanity of trying to control things outside of me to working on what’s inside of me and putting on God’s armor daily! (Ephesians 6:10-18 (NIV)